The Unexpected Shadow Side of Yoga Teacherhood: From Burnout to reclaiming the Practice
The path to becoming a yoga teacher is often painted with images of serene studios, mindful movement, and a fulfilling life dedicated to wellness. And it can be all those things. But my journey revealed a less-discussed reality: the intense pressure, notably for young teachers, that can lead to burnout and a disconnect from the very practice you love.
I dove headfirst into the world of yoga after completing my 200-hour training.I sought out mentorship, dedicated myself to consistent practice, and even adjusted my social life to prioritize my growth. Returning to my home studio and immediately starting to teach – ten to fifteen hot yoga classes a week – felt like a dream come true. My sole focus was becoming the best yoga instructor I could be. I meticulously studied cues, devoured workshops, and even pursued additional training in Yin yoga to expand my offerings. I observed experienced teachers, striving to emulate their skill and confidence.
But nothing prepared me for the weight of being the youngest teacher on the schedule. Each time a student questioned my authority with a hesitant, “Are you the teacher?”, a wave of insecurity washed over me.
The internal monologue was relentless: “If I mispronounce a word, they’ll doubt my knowledge.” “A mixed-up left and right will send them running.” “I must be perfect, or they won’t respect me.”
This wasn’t just imposter syndrome; it was amplified by my age. I felt a constant need to prove my worthiness, spending hours refining cues, crafting the perfect playlists, and memorizing names. I was driven by a desperate need for external validation,a feeling never addressed in my yoga teacher training. I didn’t know how to navigate the feeling of being “not enough” while standing in front of a room full of students.
The irony? This relentless pursuit of perfection slowly eroded my own practice. What began as three classes a week dwindled to one, then a few times a month, and eventually, barely once a month. The studio,once a sanctuary,became a source of anxiety. I was burning out – as both a teacher and a student.
The Crucial Lesson: Prioritizing Self-Care
I finally heeded the advice I’d been giving my students for months: rest when you need it. Scaling back to one class a week offered a small reprieve,and starting a university programme provided a much-needed shift in focus. Then, the COVID-19 pandemic arrived, and I stopped teaching altogether. while I dipped my toes back in occasionally, the initial passion had dimmed.No one had warned me this could happen.
Now, at 26, it’s been over two years since I last led a yoga class. my personal practice is now a cherished, occasional indulgence. And honestly? That’s okay. Yoga taught me a profound lesson: you’re allowed to embrace the season you’re in, without judgment.Life is a flow, and it’s perfectly acceptable to move in and out of challenges, emerging stronger on the other side.Sometimes, that means stepping back and simply being a student.
Reclaiming the Joy: A Return to Self-Practice
Recently, I moved to a new city and immediately sought out a local yoga studio.But this time, there were no expectations, no pressure to perform. Just a desire to reconnect with the practice.
I close my eyes in each pose, focusing solely on my breath. I’ve consciously silenced my “teacher brain.” I arrive, flow mindfully, and leave feeling the familiar sense of calm that first drew me to yoga.
My practice is now entirely directed inward – toward myself, and myself only.
What I Learned & What aspiring Teachers Should Know
My experience isn’t unique. Manny young yoga teachers face similar challenges. Here’s what I wish I’d known:
* Age is a factor, but not a defining one: Confidence comes with experience. Don’t let age dictate your self-worth.
* Self-care is non-negotiable: A depleted teacher cannot effectively serve their students.Prioritize your own practice, rest, and well-being.
* Perfection is the enemy of progress: Embrace imperfections.Authenticity resonates far more than flawless execution.
* Seek support: Connect with mentors and fellow teachers. Share your struggles and learn from their experiences.
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